Ten years ago everything hurt. Here's what I know now

Ten years ago, I was four months away from turning 40. And I was drowning.

I had a graphic design and website business that looked okay from the outside. On the inside it was a constant struggle. I was working full-time, burning out slowly, and trying to hold everything together while raising two small children, with a husband who was often away for work.

The business was always just hanging on. Robbing Peter to pay Paul.

The three months between deciding to sell and finally letting go were some of the longest, hardest days of my life. I was exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, physically done. And somewhere in all of that, I had completely lost myself.

I didn't believe in myself back then

I truly didn't. I thought the world was happening to me. I thought struggle was just part of the package.

I'd started learning some spiritual practices a couple of years earlier, but I was nowhere near where I needed to be. I didn't trust the process. I didn't even trust myself.

I felt isolated. And I felt like I was constantly failing at every part of life.

Why I'm sharing this

Because I know a lot of people feel this way right now. Burnt out. Stretched thin. Doing everything for everyone and barely hanging on.

I want you to know it doesn't have to stay this way.

Ten years later

I have two parts to my work, my healing practice and my art, and I absolutely love them both. They're not hobbies. They're my career.

I get to spend time with my family, stress-free! I have freedom, space, connection and creativity. I get to support others on their healing journey, and that fills me up every single day.

None of this happened by accident.

I did the work

• I healed my beliefs.
• I worked on my energy.
• I changed my mindset.
• I started working with the universe and stopped pushing against it.
• I learned that I have a say in how my life unfolds.

And no, I'm not perfect. There's still plenty to work on. But I'm not where I was. Not even close.

Healing doesn't happen overnight, but it does happen

Looking back, I can see how every little shift added up. Every time I chose to do the deeper work. Every time I sat with a belief and gently unravelled it. Every time I trusted myself enough to take the next step, even when it felt shaky.

I'm not done. I'll never be done. Not because I'm broken, but because I'm growing.

What I'd tell that woman on the edge of 40

Keep going. You're not failing. You're becoming. And it's so worth it.

If life feels hard right now

If you're where I was, overwhelmed, exhausted, and quietly wondering if it's all just too much, please know this. You can change everything. Not all at once. Little by little, day by day, with love and intention and support.

If you don't start today, tomorrow will look just like yesterday. If you take even one small step, the next ten years could change everything.

You are so worth it!

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